Contradiction.
“We never relate to anyone.”
I have read on Medium about someone trying to control time management within social media and how spending time on social media could be bad. As for me, I have my journey maintaining the distraction.
During the 2021 COVID-19 epidemic, everything went online to safeguard our bodies from the virus. I chose to go offline instead, deleting all my social media accounts. For those moments, I undoubtedly made the correct option. I deactivated from distractions for about more than a year before tried to find another activity, which led to have time management on social media. Until now, I could only use social media for a few minutes before closing it again. I truly can’t navigate through distractions. It wasn’t easy before I decided to deactivate; I’d been on screen for hours, only on social media.
Since then, I’ve gradually developed minor habits, such as coming on time at work and dedicating my time only to reading, writing, and studying, until I was offered a part-time job as an English teacher. My schedule is always tight.
The more I focused on my task, the more exhausted I became, but I couldn’t stop fantasising. I’ve read that self-development helps, so I tried everything, but I ended up with little energy because I’m usually busy. Even as I write these things, I see that we can’t genuinely relate to someone; all we can do is sympathise and imagine ourselves in their shoes.
Thus, it called “contradiction” something between a, but we chose b or in one’s situation we will be changing to another one.
I will try to do the opposite, but not everyone can understand this, reality and ideality are always opposites, and it is difficult to make them equal. Perhaps everyone has experienced it, being in a condition where they feel very bad there. Only I understand how bad the condition is. Likewise for me. With all the weaknesses and busyness that I do, there is still a biased view, because I live the opposite of what I aspire to.
I said, tired. Of course. Everything is learned, bad habits are slowly thrown away, and self-development books are no longer a reference. While I live in the opposites, I set a biased view of everyone, fantasising about being in other’s lives.
I only have faith, Allah gives the better for my own because I will never relate to anyone — how deep they are to live. Allah has spoken on Qur’an:
“Battle has been enjoined upon you while it is hateful to you. But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not.” (QS: Al-Baqarah: 216)
“Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. “Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people.” (QS: Al-Baqarah:286)
